February 2010
OMG MELINA I LOVE YOU AND IMISSYOU AND I WAS...
(via poorkao)
i’ll accept it…
._.
January 2010
the bad's gotta fix itself.
and if you don’t believe, then that’s fine. i’ve made my piece, make yours? i’m smiling. because these realizations excite me.
on the other side
and i know we’re going to talk tomorrow. it wont make things better and people will just get angrier and angrier.
lorena;
i’m sorry. i’ve apologized more times than i can count, but i realized it today. how i really didn’t try, how this weekend was my fault, entirely. and i can accept that and i feel awful. and i can say a lot of things, but actions speak louder. just...
on the bright side
i’m wearing mr.williams hat the hat smells like mrs. k the tournament wasnt too bad i did pretty alright in prose ihop will always be fun with the right people we make up the VIP side ;) boba tea tomorrow, maybe? i have a tub full of good ice next to me i literally smell goooooooood i dont feel like a complete failure ty, chey, juan, becky, edith and alexis made my day in about another four...
and just like that
I dont miss either one of you anymore.
But i wish you the best of happiness truly.
Edith and Becky are asleep and it makes me feel weird inside. I want to call someone but there’s no one interesting to talk to. i dont know where my glasses are so im blind as a bat.
grawgrawgraw
my thoughts are everywhere. i dont know what to feel.
im at the hotel
becky, edith, chey, ty andd juan made today,
“SMILE CLUB”
im happy and sad. you’re stressing me out by setting these goals. i want to be happy and my friends make things easier. as time goes on, i’ll have sex, except notreally.
sleeeeeeeptime. goodshow.
our hotel room is REALLY nice, btw :) movie night and tea tomorroww
Heart asleep with no air
I’m leaving in about an hour and forty minutes. This should be fun. I guess I see this as an excuse to get away. To clear my head.
take a moment take a moment take a year take a year you helped me out i listened in you taught me all of this and then.. What happened to the memories of night, the taste of the sun on our lips? Where is this feeling, because I’m not certain of whether...
I DON'T WANNA KNOWW, I DON'T WANNAA KNOWW.
Becky, you me and this song need to reconnect while driving down that bumpy road. I’ll have more adventures, I’ll see more lights. “you weren’t the first of the last or the worst” But you. I miss you. But that’s bad.
I went to Walmart today and it sucked. I think that just made me hate it more. Ohhhh, what a day, what a dayy. “13 minutes..that’s...
this is chey's post.
i don’t even know. i don’t know. pretend to be me and just talk. my hand is in a place it shouldn’t be. that cough drop tasted nasty. and so does your mouth.
EWWWWWW
i love you. i hate your stinking me. i wanna….poke you in the eye with a chicken thigh. you’re cute. you’re prettyyyy ugly. i think you smell really good. sometimes i sniff your clothes....
“i think i’m in love with Chey shifflett, and becky bacsik. For real. You...”
– chey&becky on my twitter
stop it.
Every word burns, like a fire. It’s a secret, I can’t say it. Taking my place, taking my place, replacement. this is how a toy feels when its batteries run dry this is how a toy feels when its child runs out eternal sunshine, here i come
CHEY, this is what I was talking about :D
recovery.
There’s a lot of things I want to say, but it’s incorrect to say them. I feel dry. All the feelings, all these words were stripped from me. I’m lonely, but I’m not alone. I’m sad, but I shouldn’t be. I made a bad decision today, and I wish I could go back and change it. My impulsive personality ticks me off. The need for change, the need to be needed. To want to...
i woke up late
I got ready at the same pace, maybe even slower. I walked outside for a bit and my mom made me breakfast. I told her I wanted to skip out on first period. I ate and she just left to take my sister to school.
This feels nice, but the weather bothers me.
i will play my game, you will play yours.
...
happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Floating.
And there’s this warm feeling inside of me. So pure, so magnificent. I can only recall feeling it a few times before. But I’m happy, truly. One of those moments were you want to just stop time. Relish the flavour. Never leave. And you’re so beautiful. All of you. The smiles, the looks, the hugs, the jokes. You’re throwing a raft out to me, you’re pushing me and...
“youre just a speedbump in my road. and i’ll speed drive over you.”
– nbegjiethiteuh
in becky’s room with becky obviously and chayyy
you got to reach out
becky’s here, chey’s here, ty was here
i love you all. i love them.
and yes, it is apparent.
im sorry i hurt you. i didnt mean to. but words arent much. . i love you.
“hey i hate you, and i hope youre reading this right now..and i hope it makes you cry. because it made me cry.”
fuck you and fuck her. im here. she’s not.
chey and becky and ty and lorena and...
we are ashes and wine.
i can not drive the streets at night
today was a really good day :)
School was school. I have tons of Geometry homework to catch up on, but hopefully it wont take me too long. Spanish is spanish and I finish my work in twenty minutes. APHUG is tiring as always and I feel lost. Some girls got into a fight at gym and I can’t remember the combination to my lock. Hah. Biology has to be one of the worst classes. Lunch was fun....
this is how a toy feels when its batteries run...
everything
is falling apart and i’m not making matters better. what happened to me being the one who helps people?
you want honesty? here it is.
Dear Efrain, I’ll accept the blame you hand to me. You’re right. I’m not open about shit, and I told you that from the begining. I’m not the type of person who’s going to spill my beans to someone I haven’t known long. I wanted to trust you, I wanted to open up to you. But 90% of the time, you talked about yourself. I didn’t care, I still don’t care....
Listen
i have a fear of long-term relationships.
(via techniphoria)
somebody
left their pants at my house and i’m not sure who’s they are. they’re lightwash, size 24 from forever 21. ._____________________.;
i assign one song
or more, to each person in my life. or a person who has affected me as such. and usually, i don’t listen to those songs. because they bring back memories. you ruined one of my favourite songs. you ruined a perfect moment.
never late, everyone's simply early.
ten bucks to anyone who can figure out where that’s from
1. we’ve had out rough spots. plenty of them. but you’re my best friend. truly. you pick me up when i need it the most. you take the pieces of me and try to put them together. always so gentle, always so loving. i hate that i feel like i’m never here for you. i’m not angry, i promise. i just get selfish. you...
fuck.
that hurt. haha.
i have this strong, strong feeling that everyone dislikes me now.
i want to sleep and not wake up for a while.
agreed
pussygore:
I’m inconsolable atm. I wish I wore waterproof mascara. I want to go out. I want him. I feel so bad for being such a douche. I feel so alone. There’s no point in crying but why do we still go forth
excuse the profanity.
i called. i called and i called and i called and i texted. this time, you were the one who didn’t answer. you were the one who didn’t want to make plans. i invited you, i asked you every single day to come. you never replied, you blew me off. i need you, i needed you and you blew me off. i’m sorry, but i’m so angry.
you fucking left me high and dry. you made my heart...
i want happiness.
i want happiness with you, you, and especially you. yeh.
andrea
is going to be my best friend :) hands down. we have everylittlething in common. iloveit. efrain is nice too, kina.
'we were infinite'
tonight has been amazing.
becky’s house, five year old’s birthday party, lunch with chey, becky’s house, footloose, ihop, driving around, shorts, walmart, mcflurry, ice, views, lights, hugs. and almost sleeping in a pile and singing tegan and sara at the top of our lungs. i’m not going to let what you said affect this feeling. and i’m sorry, this is me…doing...
what is I-N-F-I nite mean???
becky. how blonde. hahaha.
tonight was amazing with kim, lucia, efrain, becky, ty, edith, robert, and
francisco/CARLOS/paco/franny/sanfran/francine/francisc.
it was oh so much fun:)
and i am now introducing becky to makeup remover cloths. haha:)